Wonder
I’d forgotten what it feels like to feel wonder. To feel so grateful to be alive and witnessing the thing happening in front of your eyes. That all flashed back to me today as I sat outside with my glass of wine, feeling the cool Maine air on my face & soaking in this gorgeous sunset.
Usually, Sunday evenings are spent thinking about my schedule the following day. Do I have any meetings? How are my clients? Should I check my email tonight to mentally prepare for tomorrow?
I love the work I get to do & the change I get to witness - every day. Stepping in to support someone else’s business is an absolute privilege. However, if you aren’t careful, being someone else’s support can be the easiest way to check out of what’s going on in your own life.
The tidal wave of exhaustion, burn out, & lack of clarity on just about everything hit me hard a couple of weeks ago. I had been doing a great job of ignoring all of the gentle signals I needed to take a break, to slow down, to just be.
Once it became obvious that those feelings weren’t going to get better on their own, I did two things. 1) I signed on with a Burnout Recovery Coach & 2) I booked a vacation to Maine (which required me to take actual week days off of work 😳).
On my first call with my coach, I asked her how I could refill my cup. I feel so depleted & I don’t remember what I used to do to build my energy back up. She said it seemed to her that I’ve shed so much of who I used to be, that it was almost like I needed to be re-introduced to myself again.
She sent me a core values assessment quiz & challenged me to choose 5-7 words that really resonated with me - either concepts I embody or those I wish to call in. After moving through the assessment, I landed on: Abundance, Conscious, Empowered, Playful, & Wonder. She told me to see if I could apply those words toward decisions, thoughts & actions going forward.
As I sat watching the sunset this evening, the thought that popped into my head was “this is what wonder feels like in my body”.
I have a few more days of vacation left & I’m going to soak in every minute. To reflect, re-connect, and rest. That’s the whole agenda.
